Pause My Life...

There's never enough time is there?

Time for smelling the roses and whatnot. So, I've started thinking, lately, how I'd like to pause those sweeter moments in life and really dissect them. Observe them with a magnifying glass and leave my mark upon them. Let the recipient know that I, was in fact, here. I saw it all and savored it well.


My girls are growing like weeds before my eyes. I was holding hands with Pink the other day and noticed that she is no longer a baby. She is a little lady, standing tall, talking about life with me in terms I can understand. If I could have paused her then...right there...I would have. And I would have looked at her hands, how they fit tenderly in mine. I would have bent down and memorized every freckle left over from a summer truly enjoyed. I would have memorized her voice, just as it is now. Tiny and unfettered, yet showing signs of the girl she is to become. She is so beautiful.

And I would pause my little Tink as she excitedly recounted her day at school as the Big Bad Wolf. Pause. Right there. Blond hair wild and voice, high and mighty, like a sprite. I would breathe in her light, the brightness that begins at her toes and escapes from her blue eyes, like nighttime escaping the sunrise. She is so full of life.

And I would pause my Boy. My love for him has exploded over the last year. Sometimes I feel my heart can barely contain it. Pause. Right there in Mexico. I would pause him and really feel his hands on mine. His eyes dancing with laughter. I would feel the weight of him and memorize the lines on his face. He is such a gift.

And then I would hit play and watch their lives unfold before me and intertwine with mine. Thankful.